Well about this higher power idea. I think for myself with weight problems, and being an under earner, and having an alcoholic father. These problems make me feel that I would be dishonest if I didn't pray to God for guidance or courage to do what I feel I must do. I am thinking about learning more about christian existentialism, but not be an extremist about it. I feel that if I pray from time to time or ask God for the strength to carry on I feel that there maybe some life force that guides the evolutionary process, some kind of force that helps things to work out for certain people in certain instances.
I know that atheists have the problem of evil to convince them that there is no God for some of them, and also there is the worry that a belief in a higher power may not actually ever be known, nor can a theist ever be sure that he or she is worshiping something that doesn't exist in any verifiable sense. However if a person is sincere in how they approach life or in their prayer life, then at least they are being true to themselves as a believer or a nonbeliever. Perhaps certain people do not need to pray or have some belief in a higher power? However I feel that if I am to be true to myself I think I need to take the stance that some things work out just a little too good to be just random luck, maybe there is some like force at work? Something like from Star Wars? Either way we can't really know, but the way I feel about it, some things have just worked out a little too well for me to believe that there wasn't a little something from the Universe trying to help people accomplish what they needed to accomplish.
Call it "The Problem of Good." Yes nature is very cruel and I have seen people suffer crushing misfortune, but there is something mysterious about life, that if a person survives a certain problem, life is still worth living, under almost all but the harshest of circumstances. Circumstances such like, that can be caused by mad science and religious propaganda. However, what I would like to do as a theist existentialist is get back to the roots of religion. I would like to pray and go to a catholic church because I feel that the catholic church is open minded to existentialism, and understand the problem that exists for humans today as believers and nonbelievers alike. Specifically the problem being that God is dead for western civilization. The belief in the divinity of Jesus Christ just isn't as reinforced as it used to be back in the middle ages and it isn't philosophically tenable to believe in a literal bible interpretation of the world. I think some catholic priests if not all understand that what you learn in Sunday school, isn't really how to approach religion especially if you want to get back at the roots of religion.
Please excuse my long absence I had a busy week and a half and hope you like what I had to say. It really takes all kinds to make the world go round.
Take care,
DT